Alex.is likes Thursdays

Okay, so... last summer. I met this boy camping at zenzville. Afterwords he asked me if i felt some sexual tension between us. I did. Things were kind of akward for a bit, but we hung out and talked alot. I had the biggest crush in the world on him. The only thing is, my best friend was sleeping with him the previous year. But anyways...we end up sleeping together ( it was really nice, afterwords we just cuddled and slept for ever) and She came home the day after. Ended up getting back with him. I never told her about what happned. Shes one of thoes, omg i have a boyfriend i cant have any friends type of people. So,,they broke up 2 months ago, but its that kind of break up where you still call and hang out. but..okay..whatever.. We started talking and my friend ( also his best friend) lives in my basement so..i see him quite a bit. ONe day we went swimming but gavin didnt come. so it was just us and there was the good ol' sexual tension back.  I tell him about taters and toppings and how he ought to try them and hes like "okay later?" i say yes.  Okay..soo im in the shower shaving while i tell myself nothing's going to happen. So, we get taters and toppings but mary browns is closed and you cant eat them there. so we go back to my house, watch a movie and eat. then we go in the fouton room. Get the bright idea to build a fort made out of blankets. Fort is done, we're inside it. Im stomache is eating itsself. After a while we're like 2 mms from eachohers faces and he starts to laugh. Im like whhat? he tells he hes throbbing. Can you say akward silence? So we start to kiss, and i gotta say it was pretty awesome. I make the first move by taking of his shirt. he takes off mine. Soon enough we're naked.  even sooner and we're doing it. He leaves at 6 30 becasue his dad needs the car for work.

*sigh* I really dont know what to do. He dosn't know that i like him. Its not like it matters becasue i would never be able to be with him. I still never told her, I never will.

How many TVs do you have in your house?

First of all my house is fairly new. we bought it last june. Its 2 apartments though. the basement is an apartment.so when mom and her boyfriend broke up so we had to rent out the bastment in order to keep the house. My friends gavin and adam decided to rent it.

so in MY half of the house there are 3 t.v's.  One in my room one in the living room and one in the spare room. I guess we really dont need 3 t.vs considering I gave up t.v for my last new years resoultion and mom works 11 hours a day 5 days a week. I do watch alot of movies and play games alot though, I love final fantasy. 7,9, are my faves.

And in GAVINS half there is always at least 3 t.vs down there. they only actually own 2 t.v's but they are HUGE gameers. So Wayne or chris or another person is always over there with there t.v so they can all ame at the same time. what dorks. theres every game system ever downthere. See....Gavin went away to alberta and did sysmic work. made a shit load of money and came home and spent it on ps3,  wii, psp  & games for all. Plus being a gamer he already had a ps, ps2, n64. Its cray downthere. I go downthere and i feel like im at the source.

So there are 5 t.v's in the house. thats the uncomplicated answer. 

 Recently, my best friend tried to Kill herself. she took a bunch of seraquill and her parents found her having a seizure. shes 17.  I can't help but feel I failed her as a friend or something. I mean...I just felt like I should of seen it coming. I guess I kind of did, I noticed she stopped comming to school and was depressed but, I just thought she needed time to get over him. she says she did it because Dave ( the on again off again for 5 years boyfriend actually got another girlfriend. I think that was a big factor but I also think her family has a lot to do with it, her brother is bipolar and very mean to her,  her dad is terrifying, her sister is super strict; her mom is really the only sensible one in the house, And shes still nuts. She lives in a small apartment with her older brother and her parents, 3 dogs and a cat. I think she just needs to get out of there.

As Im reading this, I realise it still hasn't sunk in yet. All I can think of is why?  and I know I have no right to ask, or even judge her decesion but is life really THAT bad? 

I just made ths account and so far this site seems pretty confusing but...I imangine I;ll figure it out. I dont know why i made an account i was browsing google and i clicked on something and it was someones blog and it lookd cool. So i was like "i want to join".

Tell us two truths and a lie about yourself.

Im good at math

Im a good cook

I love final fantasy